Day 13 | Saturday Mornings

Good Morning!  Welcome to day 13.  I can tell you that it looks very different than day 6 and even day 10.  Yesterday was an overall great day in my opinion.  It was the first day where I felt like an actual human.  I ended up working at my job for a full day.  I completely did not plan on doing that.  I got up at 7 after sleeping great and had breakfast, NO ANTI-EMETICS.  And I wanted to just catch up on my inbox and get it cleaned out, only because I felt good and wanted to do something different.  

Matt brought me Zakby's, as that's what I wanted to eat for lunch and I ate the entire meal, still NO ANTI-EMETICS.  So as you can tell yesterday as a normal day.  I did not do all that much physically but overall it was a great day.  I did not fall asleep till a little after 3am.  Literally could not go to sleep.  So I fully anticipate napping today.  I got up at 7 am as usual.  

I feel very similar to yesterday at this point.  Hearing is still crap, plenty of hearing loss and ringing in the ears.  And I have not mentioned it before but it is worth mentioning that my legs from the knee down at times will feel like someone else's legs.  They are not swollen and are not retaining fluid but they do feel as if I am carrying something with them.  The sensation is on the front of my legs not the back.  So I cant tell you what it is, but today that sensation is back.  

In general I am an early to bed early to rise person.   As they say early to be and early to rise makes a man Smart, Wealthier and Wise.  I don't really remember too many days where we slept late growing up.  I am sure it happened and I am sure I wanted it to happen more as a younger kid than it did, but Saturday was a day of work.  

I grew up in a home of divorced parents.  So weekends were shared and typically every other weekend was a different location.  The location generally drove what we did for the day.  And grandma's always meant no work and just play.  In any situation Saturday morning generally meant a hot breakfast.  No cereal or pop tart.  Pancakes, eggs, grits or Correll Park Bacon :).  A little fact about Correll Park Bacon, it really is just fried bologna, and oh so good.  

I have learned that Saturday Morning TV has not really changed in 30 years, Jack Hanna is still teaching me about the wild world of animals.  Cartoons start shortly after and then you get the news at noon.  One thing I can say is that I am not as big of a fan of TV as I once was.  There really isn't anything good on TV these days.  I have watched mostly the Netflix or Starz, Prime or other streaming application of the day.  While were on the topic of streaming services, I find it interesting that we broke away from cable tv and moved to streaming as a form of economics to save on the rapidly increasing cost of premium content.  Now I feel that we pay well more than that for the numerous individual services we have.  $17 for Netflix, $12 for Prime $9 for Starz, $11 for Hulu, and $20 for Philo.  And I am sure there is $5 going somewhere else.  

It just goes to show we will spend about $5 on anything and never think much about it.  

I think some of my best Saturday mornings were in my high school years.  Dad and I spent time to build a Cabin in the Woods from the ground up.  1 BR with a Loft, electric and a Kitchen.  We made an outhouse given the complexity of a bathroom, but overall everything else was there.  I can't remember much about putting the roof on, but the foundation, floors, walls, electrical and the finishing touches I can recall in detail.  This meant waking up at 6am, going to Stamey's BBQ and getting a sandwich and heading off to the building site.  We would spend till just after lunch on the assigned task for the day.  Moon Pie's and RC Cola were always involved and the radio station of choice was the Big Show with John Boy and Billy, followed by oldies.  

I think I enjoyed watching it go from nothing to a completed livable structure the most. I have never done anything to this scale again.  I don't know that I would even find pleasure in building a simple storage building.  In life we get the opportunity to build a lot of things from nothing.  To learn and to make memories.  In 10 years from now I will look back on this experience just like I think about the Cabin in the woods. 

There have been several times the past week where my brain explodes as I think "Nick you have Cancer".  I mean the reality of it all still doesn't seem to compute with me.  I guess I should not be surprised that I got cancer. I mean, I seem to have not had the most normal health status overall.  But who would have dreamed that at 36 years old I would get cancer, have surgery and complete the Chemotherapy for said Cancer.  In life each of us will have our "You have Cancer" moment.  You might not have Cancer, but something as significant will in reality happen.  The level or the degree of which it happens will be completely individualized.  So I am learning that life is more precious than we know.  We all need to take more time to enjoy our families, more time to enjoy life.  We have to stop waiting for retirement, or planning that vacation for next year.  We never know what is just around the corner.  I mean 2020 has been a dumpster fire, and it may never get better.  

Today is as good as it gets, so embrace it and live for today.  

I promised a PIC of PICC so here ya go: