Here I am

 I have always wanted to start a blog and share my thoughts with the world.  But my thoughts don't always mesh with the world.  And let's face it, my strong suit is math and science so literature and the written word will get a lot of feedback.  So bring it on!   

Here is my Full Disclosure, this is intended to be an opportunity for me to express my thoughts and share my experiences with the world.  I am not looking for others to agree to disagree, I try to keep an open mind and always encourage others to express themselves equally.  So HERE I AM.  We will see how well I keep up with this.  I am starting this now because the past month has been a real kick in the balls.  If in 100 years someone finds this post in their version of the internet or whatever 2020 has SUCKED all around.  

Let us start with who am I? 

I am a Child of God

First and foremost I believe that I am a Child of God.  That he loves me, that he has sent me here to Earth to help me grow, to show me how strong I am.  I believe that we are all Sons and Daughters of a Loving Heavenly Father.  Regardless of the struggles or challenges we have in life that principle is fundamental in my thinking.  With that I believe that we all have a different relationship with our Heavenly Father, that we will all call him by a different name, worship him differently and communicate with him differently.   

I am a Giver

I currently work in Healthcare, I have always been drawn to helping others, to serving others and believe in giving back.  We never know how far Charity will take each of us.  If we are nice to others we never know the outcome.  Now in life I am also sometimes called the Disagreeable Giver.  What is that you would ask.  Well I enjoy Ted Talks, and you can look up the Ted Talk by Adam Grant.  I will try to post it here, I am still new to all this Blogging process so I don't know if that is allowable but I will give it a try.  This statement is from Adam Grant and can be found in his book Give and Take: 

“Disagreeable givers are the most undervalued people in our organizations, because they’re the ones who give the critical feedback that no one wants to hear but everyone needs to hear,” - Adam Grant Give and Take 

So I am the one that always says what others are thinking and never want to say it.  And then I do what is required.  I will share my thoughts and then get to work doing whatever I need to do.  

I am a Brother 

I am the oldest between myself and my Sister.  I have not had any communication with her for more than 10 or 12 years now.  That is her decision and not mine.  I love her just the same today as I did when we grew up.  Additionally my Father passed away in 2005 and I still feel that this took away from my life experiences to some degree.  But life happens, we are all on different journeys and we all have different challenges and outcomes in life. 

I am a Paramedic 

I am the one who always keeps calm in the mist of chaos and does well under pressure.  With that comes also my comfort in being in control or in charge, the one who people look to when things are going bad.  It also goes back to my love for helping others.  Being a Paramedic has taught me a couple of things:

1) Life can be cruel, unfair and bad things happen to good people. 

2) The human body can withstand a lot and things aways work out in the end.

3) Even if you are in control, we are NEVER in control. 

4) Do your best ALWAYS.  And remember that sometimes your best WONT be good enough. 

5) There is plenty of evil in the world. 

Even with all the things I experience, have experienced and will yet to experience, it is always worth it.  

A Cancer Patient, Fighter and Surviver 

This is the motivation for posting the blog.  I want to be able to document my experiences and share them with others.  Through this experience I have found that there is not a lot of support or information out there for people in my seat.  Thats good and bad all at the same time I guess.  But it has now become a part of who I a

m and who I will be.  The odds are in my favor and all will be okay, go back to #1, it will all work out.  

As of today I am 36 years old, I continue to work Part Time as a Paramedic and full time I work in Healthcare Administration, specially Operational/Clinical Finance.  The numbers guy in healthcare.  I am single, and overall a fairly positive person.  While some think my candor is a negative perspective on life, I view it as a realistic approach.  You will routinely hear me say "it is what it is."

My favorite saying in life is "We are our actions, not our words".  This drives my ability to show my love and concern through my actions.  My love language would be acts of service.  Show me also comes to mind.  

So that concludes the who am I information.  I guess as I keep going you will learn more and more about who I am.  And one day maybe together we will discover who I am.  

Stay Tuned . . .