Getting back to normal

Tomorrow is October the 1st and here we go.  Tomorrow is the first day back at work officially.  I have been working off and on as I have felt like it, but it is time to get back to more normal life.  I feel generally well.  I still don't taste much more than salt, the hearing is still bad and I get tired.  But other than that I feel great.  

The taste will come back soon they say.  I think the most frustrating part is that my brain is craving a particular food and I want that food.  But when I eat it, it taste nothing like what I am craving.  Think of a big piece of cake and all you want is that cake.  And when you bite into it you taste nothing, not a thing.  So my brain is still give me the cake, but I eat the cake and there is no satisfaction.  So you could feed me about anything right now and I would never know if it was good or bad.  Soon enough I will be able to taste that cake and my brain will be satisfied.  It also makes COVID screening fun, yes I have lost my sense of taste, but we all know it is the Chemo not the Miss Rona.  I just say no given it is linked clearly to another issue.  

I am afraid that my hair is on its way out.  For the past two days my body hair has been disappearing.  Can't say that I am too upset about that.  I also have two smooth spots on my face, SO SMOOTH.  The hair on my chiny chin chin is gone gone gone.  Still holding strong on the top of my head, not even thinning out.  

I was talking with a friend today who asked the question was it as bad as you thought it was going to be?  Well to be honest, no it was not.  I prepared for much worse.  That is not to downplay the not so fun experience, but overall it was not as bad as I had feared.  

Monday I got dinner delivered by Carmen.  She brought lasagna, salad and her mom made homemade yeast rolls.  Carmen first made lasagna for me 10 years ago probably.  I think we have known each other that long, and every since I have never found anyone that makes it as good as she does.  So needless to say I was excited about getting it.  The texture was amazing and I have not forgotten how good it is so my brain had to feel in the blanks for my lack of taste.  

I also got a gift box from my Floyd Anesthesia Team.  I will have to do something nice for all of them.  They do such a good job there and again great people to work with.  

My dentist office sent me a nice box from Joshua Tree.  It included a succulent and a candle.  I would have never expected this much from them and they were great!  So a Plug for Smile Solutions Dental in Harrisburg.  

I can say that I think the biggest part of my success has been the mental positivity and humor I have surrounded myself with.  Also Brea, Tina and Susanne made each day manageable and were so supportive and patient.  So my advice for the next person who enters this journey is to have a positive attitude and take it one day at a time.  You eat the elephant one bite at a time and you will take this journey one day and one step at a time.  Do not rush it, it will all happen as it is suppose to happen.  Look to what you can control and remember YOU GOT THIS!