This time next week I will have successfully completed Day 1 of the 21 days of treatment. I don't know there are word to express how I am feeling or tolerating any of this. I am not looking forward to it to say the least, but all I can do it just show up and get it done!!
I think that the hardest part of all of this is the complexity because of COVID-19. This prevents anyone from being with me during treatment, not even 1 person. I basically have to be driven and dropped off at the Cancer Institute for 6-8 each day for 5 days. and then again each of the next 2 Mondays. So I have to not only go through all of this, but I have to go through it alone. I am limited to 1 person living with me and limited transportation options.
So far everyone has been supper supportive and want to help. They want to help me with rides to and from, to sit with me during treatment and to help bring me meals etc. I am not sure what all that is going to look like in the coming weeks and I really should get a game plan together. I think that the hardest part is knowing that I want people to support me and I want to feel their love and positivity and it is going to be harder for that to happen now.
I was surprised today when I got two packages in the mail. Both were from a company #RockTheTreatment. It is a company that is designed to create gift boxes for Cancer patients. I could not help but get emotional when they arrived today. Each box is full of the things that I know I will be needing over the next month. Things I needed to get out and purchase and had not yet done.
One of the boxes is from a Friend Jennifer who I meet through @Colleensdream. Colleen's Dream is a non-profit located in Phoenix Arizona who raise money for Ovarian Cancer Research. Terah had Ovarian Cancer and they were amazing towards her and supported her in so many ways. Each year they host a Gala as their large fundraiser. I have so much to say about those experiences and will at some point. Jennifer was always at our table. Each year she and a friend would come and we got to share the evening with them. We have always kept in touch and I could not be more grateful that she thought enough to send me this gift.
The other box came from four co-workers. Amy, Nina, Jackie, and Will. I should craft a creative name for this group as they always are there as my cheerleaders. Amy is our boss and is amazing to work with. She is the kinda boss who just wants to get the job done. She gives the feedback you need and support you want. Nina and I have similar roles, she lives in Atlanta and runs a large book of business. She is also the one who volunteered to sit with me in the Emergency Room most of the night and pick me up and return me to the airport when I got sick in Atlanta. She always has my back and I have enjoyed her friendship. Jackie is in Human Resources, Caw Caw, (a joke she will appreciate if she reads this). I have enjoyed having her on the team and she does an amazing job. She does the job most of us would never want to do and she does it well. Will, he is our Corporate Council, and a solid friend. He has so much going on in his life, and he is always making sure I am doing well. He always tells me to "hang in there buddy".
Support is important through this journey. We are not designed to do this all alone. I am confident that I will feel more and more love and support in the days and weeks to come. I will thrive on this. So for those of you who are worried about calling or texting, DON'T. I want to hear from others and I need the encouragement and the motivation. I need all the positive vibes I can get. And I promise, as soon as I am over this and we can party that is exactly what we are going to do!
So when someone ask what they can do, I say all you can do! Send me positive comments, positive thoughts and vibes. Listen to me cry, complain and vent. Think of me, and let me know it. I get a message at least once a day from a friend saying that they are thinking about me. I love those, it is always a different person and it makes my day.
I know all of you are creative and I know you would all pile in that room with me each day till this is over if they would let you. And I know you will find a way to support me and show your love. I love the humor and the witty comments so do not worry about them offending me, go for it. Permission Granted.
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